Nights like these…..

I just wish things were different. I wish I can talk to someone, express to them how I truly feel. I hate keeping everything bottled up, yes I do have friends to talk to but sometimes I can’t tell them everything, I can’t get everything off my chest because I know how its gonna turn out, I know they are just gonna get mad and be like WTF is your problem? but then again its like you can’t blame them because they don’t know what your going through EXACTLY! I just hate it, it still gets to me up to now. I hate how things turned out, where I am right now. I know in the end its for the best, I will soon see why God put me in this situation, but when will I realize, when will that time come? I’ve been waiting and waiting for how long, patiently, but now I’m slowly loosing hope, loosing faith, I’M SLOWLY GIVING UP! .